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Here starts my journal of thoughts... preparing for, during, and after the MAD DTS with YWAM. Please feel free to contact me with any questions, etc.

9.26.2007

Isaiah 61:1-4

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, [a]

2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,

3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.

4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
that have been devastated for generations.

9.25.2007

take my life

In the hustle and bustle of getting all of the last details figured out it has been hard to make time to spend for myself (and God). I want to see and spend time with my beloved friends and family before I go, so it has been hard to juggle that with getting details done, not to mention cleaning out my room. Saying no or making time shorter with friends is not something I want to do, but may be necessary for me to be rested and ready to go. Time alone is something that I'll be lacking much of in the next 7mos. so taking that time now is important. My short prayer for this is that I would have wisdom in these last remaining days of how to effectively use my time.

This past weekend we sang a song that really resonated with me (or maybe it was the weekend before, i don't remember).... "Take My Life And Let it Be".. this is my prayer... and also the old song by Amy Grant "Thy Word". I've posted the lyrics below to a "modernized" version of Take My Life... My favorite parts are the chorus... "Here am I, all of me. Take my life, it's all for thee." At church we sing the original version, and then sing this chorus... I really love the original too, but this rendition is cool as well. If you're curious how it sounds, look it up under Chris Tomlin in iTunes or Amazon.

Tonight, "Thy Word" popped into my head. I think it has to do with this feeling I've been having lately about the unknown. So, the chorus says "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." the last part is what struck me. He is my light.. His word is my light in the unknown territory I am journeying into. "Nothing will I fear, as long as you are there, please be near me to the end." (going off of memory here)... Funny how this old nostalgic song gave me the comfort and affirmation I needed for the unknown. I know it's not necessarily an easy fix, but a good reminder and something to hang onto.


Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord, to thee.
Take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of thy love.
Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for thee.

Take my voice and let me sing always, only for my king.
Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from thee.
Take my silver and my gold not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use every power as you choose.

Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for thee.

Take my will and make it Thine it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart it is thine own; it shall be thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord I pour at your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee,
Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee.

Here am I, All of me.
Take my life, It's all for thee.

Take my life, Lord take my life. take all of me

Here am I, All of me.
Take my life, It's all for thee.

9.05.2007

macbook madness

A couple of weeks ago I went in to the Apple Store to purchase a Macbook. I looked around and decided which laptop I really thought would work the best. I came to my decision that it was the Macbook Pro, it's the higher end type of laptop, but the lower model in the series. I was really excited, but they were swamped so I waited and waited. When I finally spoke with someone, they informed me it was out of stock everywhere, and that I could order it online with free-shipping or call in every once in awhile to see if they have had any shipments. Though the latter of the two options seemed a little obnoxious, I'm still just old fashioned when it comes to this stuff and like to be in person for big purchases. I left the store that day frustrated that I drove out to Rosedale for nothing, yet excited that I knew what I really wanted.

In the meantime, I called every so often until last friday when I got a bite! I decided to call in the morning for a change. The nice man at the rosedale store said to call midday because they get blind shipments all day. (why didn't any of them tell me that before?) I almost forgot to call, but at 1pm I stole a moment away from work and called the Apple Store. VOILA! They had the exact one I wanted, but could only hold it for 2hours. I guess it was going to be a half-day, good thing my "schedule" is flexible. I informed Guy(the boss-man), about the news and he gave me his blessing. At 2:35pm I was out the door and on my way to Rosedale.

I walked in and told them I had a Macbook Pro waiting for me, etc etc. The guy who helped me then inquired if I knew about the free printer offer with mail-in rebate, or the student discount offer. I indeed knew about the student discout, but quickly informed him that it probably wouldn't work for me. We went over to the printer and he showed me the free one that included a scanner AND copier... SWEET! Sign me up! Then he inquired further about my school, and I told him about the University for the Nations (which is the affiliated university that gives credit for the DTS). I said I didn't think it was considered the same as a university because even when I tried to defer loans it didn't show up in there list. He said he had heard of YWAM and that he would check UFN out. He came back and said all he needed was to see some sort of certification that I was enrolled... another AWESOME deal! That meant I got $200 off AND a FREE ipod nano. I was astonished... I really had it in my head that I wouldn't get the student discount.

As I walked out of the store with my laptop, printer(scanner/copier), and ipod nano, I could barely contain my joy and elation. I felt an overwhelming gratefulness to my Lord for putting all these things into place. (not to mention thankfulness to my Grandma who was the $ provider... lots of LOVE to her!!) I put it all in the trunk and got in my car, and BAWLED.

There was so much anticipation and unexpected additions, it was too much to contain. Why is it that God keeps paving my way so easily? (knock on wood) Where is the hang-up going to be, I mean, God forbid... I don't want anything awful to happen, but with everything going fairly easily it's hard to believe it will continue to be this easy. I suppose it will be difficult in other arenas... maybe the arena of my heart, unexpeced things that I have to work through? I don't know... I know this whole journey won't be easy, but I guess if these initial things go well, it's better that way?!


ending prayer of thankfulness..

OH Lord... you have been good.... you have been faithful... you have been good.
Thank you Lord Jesus for the path you have paved before me and what you will bring me through in the next 7months... I anticipate your revelations of life, love, trust, and peace... and so much more!